I have recently started a new journey: writing a book. But not just any book, no. This book is excruciatingly personal, which automatically makes it a different kind of painful than my fiction novel I’ve left on the shelf. This book is unlike anything I ever thought I’d write because it’s not dealing with fictional elements; it’s creative nonfiction. I can’t hide here.
The reason I chose creative nonfiction, as opposed to fiction, is because I was reading some essays I wrote from when I took a Creative Nonfiction class in college. While reading, I fell in love with the language, the words all over again.
Writing those essays were somewhat challenging because prior to that class, I had only ever written fiction. I was comfortable there, but with this new endeavor, I’d not only been moved out of my comfort zone, I had expanded it. I want to do that again. I want to be real with myself and others. No more fictional lies. Just gritty, hair-raising, mouth-gaping honesty and authenticity.
The intended book is, and will be, a collection of poems and essays, including work I’ve written on this blog and new, unforeseen works centered around three essential topics: Life, Christianity, and Mental Issues. Pretty broad, I know, but it’ll make sense when it’s all done.
More than a journey of self-discovery, I’m writing this book because I know I’m not alone in my struggles. Someone needs my book. That’s not being vain, I’m just being real. I know I’m not the only Christian in the world who’s been traumatized and is living with the aftermath of those experiences. I’m not the only one questioning whether or not God is who He says he is and struggles with the shame and guilty feelings that come as a result of that wrestling match. I’m not the only one who knows how hard it is to get out of bed in the morning. I feel honored to write this book, regardless if anyone reads it or not.
To my followers, whether you’ve been here from the beginning or just five minutes ago, I want to thank you for your continued support and readership. Love you guys!