Empathetizing with My Abuser

Dear Lovelies, Yes, you read the title right. No, I haven't lost my mind (not yet anyway). Just, let me explain. During a conversation I had yesterday with a friend, I realized why my abuser left Christianity. It was because of people who claim to be genuine Christians but are hypocritical, graceless, and so close-minded … Continue reading Empathetizing with My Abuser

If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt

In my experience, there's one thing that is seldom, if ever, discussed in Evangelical Christian circles: doubt. If mentioned at all, it's said with a disapproving tone and usually accompanied with a head shake that is supposed to convey genuine sadness and grief over "that poor backslider" who had "such a strong relationship with Jesus", … Continue reading If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt

Birthday Post

Today is my birthday. I'm now 26. I feel no different than I did yesterday, except that I got better sleep last night than the night before. I'm putting up clean laundry while listening to NF, a Christian rapper whose raw honesty draws me to him. I don't know what to do with myself today, … Continue reading Birthday Post

Triple Threat: Dissociation, Anxiety, and Insomnia

Dear Lovelies, As I write this, it is almost 6:00 in the morning and I have been awake now for three hours. This is my normal. I keep my phone next to me so I can play calming music or a thunderstorm on YouTube in hopes of falling back asleep. I keep snacks in my … Continue reading Triple Threat: Dissociation, Anxiety, and Insomnia