If I Were to Leave Christianity, This Would be Why…

There are many things in and about Christianity that don’t make sense: the sovereign mandate to kill hundreds of men, women, and children; the outlandish and outrageous commands in the Levitical law; the command the we must forgive others or our own sins won’t be forgiven—as someone who has been in abusive and traumatic situations … Continue reading If I Were to Leave Christianity, This Would be Why…

Musings of a Wanderer

I don't think I've ever really explained my site title or domain. So, I want to take some time to do that. When I started this blog, back in February 2017, it was during a time where I was doubting God and questioning/abhorring Christianity. I know, what a terrible thing for me, a Christian, to … Continue reading Musings of a Wanderer

The Pastor’s Daughter

The wooden figurine of Christ nailed to the cross hangs right behind my dad’s pulpit and always gives me the creeps. Maybe because it’s a constant reminder of my sin and worthlessness apart from Christ, which on other days would give me hope, but not today. Today, the cross mocks me. Maybe it’s the condemnation … Continue reading The Pastor’s Daughter

The Traumatic Nature of Deconversion

Memory is unreliable when recounting old wounds, but I do know that the beginning of the end started with an email to an old professor in which I expressed: "I don't think I believe in the God of Christianity anymore," and ended with a Facebook post about deconversion, and an awkward, hard conversation at the … Continue reading The Traumatic Nature of Deconversion

And Jesus Asked, “Who Do You Say That I Am?”

He asked His disciples, "13Who do people say that the Son of Man is?" 14And they said, "Some say John the Baptist; others, Elijah; still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets." 15"But you," He asked them, "who do you say that I am?" 16Simon Peter answered, "You are the Messiah, the Son of the … Continue reading And Jesus Asked, “Who Do You Say That I Am?”

Panic Attacks and Sexuality in the Church

My pastor talked about sex last Tuesday night. I knew that before I got there, thanks to the Facebook post on our mid-week service page. In hindsight, I probably should not have gone, but I'm getting ahead of myself. For context, we're currently going through the book of Ephesians and Tuesday night's passage of Scripture … Continue reading Panic Attacks and Sexuality in the Church

Having a Form of Godliness… (The External Christian)

Dear Lovelies, I'm following a Facebook post by my friend in which he questions "what is the line between 'merriment' and 'sin' when it comes to Christians drinking?" This is an important question because there's a lot of discussion around this topic and many Christians disagree (and it's my personal opinion that Michael likes to … Continue reading Having a Form of Godliness… (The External Christian)

Viewing God Through the Lens of Trauma

Earlier today, I read through my friend Michael Patton's post "On Leaving My First Love" and found similarities between where he was years ago and where I find myself now. In it, he speaks of his life's difficulties, arguing with God, and finally coming to a place of surrender. I am somewhere between pulling myself … Continue reading Viewing God Through the Lens of Trauma