The Hope of the Messiah in the Midst of Pharisees

When I was washing my cup out late last week, I washed the outside first and then the inside. I usually don't do that. I usually wash it the other way around. I didn't think anything of it until Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse: "Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you … Continue reading The Hope of the Messiah in the Midst of Pharisees

Why “God Loves Me” Isn’t Enough to Sustain Christianity

During a conversation I had with a friend last week, she expressed to me that she was doubting several things regarding spirituality and Christianity, as a religion, and what value it had to her personally. She told me that she no longer wanted anything to do with the Church, as her congregants are full of gossiping, … Continue reading Why “God Loves Me” Isn’t Enough to Sustain Christianity

When Divinity Interrupts Humanity

Dear Lovelies, It's been over a month since I last posted and that was deliberate. I wanted to give myself time to see if coming back to Christ would actually make a difference in my life. Needless to say, God definitely took me up on that challenge! When I want to be, I'm a private … Continue reading When Divinity Interrupts Humanity

Something Like Love (The Birth of a Flame)

It started or, depending on your view of things, ended Tuesday night. Watching ancient paper documents from long ago employments, along with other things like wood and paper plates, burn in a fire pit in the backyard of my group leader's house was, for lack of a better word, magical. There's something intriguing about seeing something … Continue reading Something Like Love (The Birth of a Flame)

Breaking up with God: The Aftermath

It's an odd thing, being in a relationship with someone, loving and caring for them, and then separating. One becomes two again. You avoid them as best you can, inwardly cringing and outwardly hiding if your paths happen to cross. The awkward conversations you have when you're not yet in the "we're still friends" stage. … Continue reading Breaking up with God: The Aftermath

Empathetizing with My Abuser

Dear Lovelies, Yes, you read the title right. No, I haven't lost my mind (not yet anyway). Just, let me explain. During a conversation I had yesterday with a friend, I realized why my abuser left Christianity. It was because of people who claim to be genuine Christians but are hypocritical, graceless, and so close-minded … Continue reading Empathetizing with My Abuser

If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt

In my experience, there's one thing that is seldom, if ever, discussed in Evangelical Christian circles: doubt. If mentioned at all, it's said with a disapproving tone and usually accompanied with a head shake that is supposed to convey genuine sadness and grief over "that poor backslider" who had "such a strong relationship with Jesus", … Continue reading If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt

Lost: Searching for Peace

I just got home from life group, AKA, hanging out with a bunch of Christians. It was uneventful until two games of Brazilian Uno, as per our nightly routine, but something different happened tonight. A lone piano was played, came alive by talented hands, and praises were sung to a holy deity. Tonight, different voices … Continue reading Lost: Searching for Peace