New Website!

Dear Lovelies, I have exciting news: I have a new website!! I migrated to the self-hosted WordPress after extreme deliberation and I couldn't be happier. I want to invite you guys to continue to support me by subscribing to my new home: Same great content, just a different style. It's imperative that you, my … Continue reading New Website!

Eating Spinach is the Closest I’ll Get to Collard Greens

For dinner Tuesday night, I made a grilled cheese sandwich using Swiss instead of cheddar cheese because I wanted to taste something different. In the middle of my cooking I thought, "What else can go with this?" and opened the fridge to find glorious spinach calling to me from the second drawer. So I grabbed … Continue reading Eating Spinach is the Closest I’ll Get to Collard Greens

The Power of Music (For the Love of Broadway and Musicals)

Dear Lovelies, Tonight, after work, I was sitting in the front of the store listening to the soundtrack for Rent via YouTube, specifically, Light My Candle. As I'm enjoying the musical story of a young girl addicted to crack trying to flirt with her upstairs neighbor, I'm simultaneously watching people flow in and out of … Continue reading The Power of Music (For the Love of Broadway and Musicals)

Thoughts on The Greatest Showman

Dear Lovelies, If you haven't seen The Greatest Showman, you need to watch it. This is probably the only movie that I have cried happy tears from, the only movie I would pay to see again in the theatre. It was beautiful. I've fallen in love with the characters and the music! Guys, the music … Continue reading Thoughts on The Greatest Showman

Birthday Post

Today is my birthday. I'm now 26. I feel no different than I did yesterday, except that I got better sleep last night than the night before. I'm putting up clean laundry while listening to NF, a Christian rapper whose raw honesty draws me to him. I don't know what to do with myself today, … Continue reading Birthday Post

Travailing through Trauma: A Night With PTSD

Last night, PTSD won. I spent most of the night curled up in my closet, like a child afraid of the Boogeyman, trying my best to be as small as possible, like nothing at all, because the amount of open space my room offered was too much. Around 11 p.m., I lied on the floor … Continue reading Travailing through Trauma: A Night With PTSD

Defying Gravity (and Religion)

Dear Lovelies, The words Elphaba sings in Defying Gravity are a testament to where I am right now: "Something has changed within me, something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust … Continue reading Defying Gravity (and Religion)

Being in a State of Unicorn

Yesterday, J., my therapist, suggested, in the middle of a conversation, that I write down every emotion I was afraid to face and name while going through this process, this balancing act, of belief. The first thing I wrote down was "confused". That one came too easily, followed by more expected feelings like "emptiness" and … Continue reading Being in a State of Unicorn